January 17, 2010

Almost There

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and Happy New Year! I did not send out Christmas cards this year, but really enjoy all of yours.

The Kolineks are doing really well, as most of you, since we are out doing all the joyful things in life again on a consistent basis. Reeve is doing well in Kindergarten, Kaylynn loves preschool, Larry's business keeps him always busy, and I continue to keep up with our medical and being a stay home mommy needs.

Regarding Medical, my two year scans where all clear. BEST NEWS! So this Thursday, Jan 21st. I will start the reconstruction process of growing boobies. It will be a six month plus process, but SO worth it. Thursday will be my hardest surgery, as they will cut my peck muscles in two areas and put in expanders to start stretching my skin. I got some nice prescription pain killers again and muscle relaxers. That should be fun. I will have those damn drainage tubes (4 of them) coming out of me for two weeks. It's hard to get boobs, you men are lucky. And btw the way, not wearing a bra for the last two years, WONDERFUL! Helps when you work out too.

After the expanders are put in and I heal. I will start going weekly for a fill up of saline. I will continue to grow my new boobies until I say stop. They will definitely look fake since they will be up to my chin while the skin stretches out. When I say stop, the doctor will fill me some more, so that when the implants are put in (yes, another surgery) I will drop. Luckily, I've always been very open about my cancer, so it won't be a shock to many.

I will say, I'm very excited to get my women figure back. I did enjoy the two years of freedom. I'm sure Larry will be happy about it. :) I've learned about going through the last 2 years with Kaylynn's hemangioma and my cancer. Some of the most amazing changes in my life have occurred. And I can honestly say, I'm the lucky one! People who are around me daily, I believe know exactly what I'm talking about.

Kaylynn is looking wonderful. She is a total spit fire with so MUCH independence. So demanding. So smart. She tests mommy and daddy daily. Or as I have come to realize "a mini me" Geez, I don't know how my mom did it being a single mom. Everyday, I think of my mom often and wish I could have her here on this earth with me. But I have truly come to realize she is with me more now than ever before. (one of the lucky reasons of me surviving cancer)

A lot of you ask for updates on my dear friend Michelle, words are hard to write to explain how I feel about her. I just tear up writing this, but have learned to smile more as she has always made me laugh so much. Her beautiful smile and face just lights up your heart. Someone who is beautiful outside and inside. Michelle's cancer is progressing rapidly. She is continuing on her life journey by finishing up her bucket list. (another reason to be lucky of surviving cancer) It is not just a saying "LIVE IN THE MOMENT". You truly don't know how many moments you have on this earth. Michelle started a trail drug this week, we all pray this is the one. It only takes one. Instead of getting sad regarding the progressing of Michelle's cancer, smile and think of something wonderful and send her that beautiful energy you feel inside.

I don't really like New Year's resolutions, since they seem so short term. So don't forget to write down your 2010 life goals for the year and go for it! Some of mine, is to do the Danskin Triathlon in June, understand and live Eckart Tolle's work (so many wonderful things can come from this), start more again for Larry.