My Breast Cancer Sucks

Merry Christmas to All!

 

I'm sorry I haven't written in so long.   With the holidays and recovery from surgery,  I just haven't been able to stop.   I've been in get ready for chemo mode this last week.     I've let go a lot some and it helps with all of you spoiling me with blessings, gifts and help, but  I'm still trying to get everything done before I start chemo.  

 

It is all the planning for my medical treatments, Kaylynn's next Trip to NY, and Reeve being off school for two weeks that has kept me busy.    I'm still doing all of our family bills,  Larry's company's bills, and managing the huge stacks of insurance payments and claims.  We use to get a stuffed long envelope twice a week,  now it is an 8 X 10 folder.   Our insurance company has  hate us. 

 

BTW,   Kaylynn is schedule for New York Jan 7th for Laser with Dr. Waner.  Larry and I are going together.   I will be going as that is what I do as a mother.     I will do everything I have to, to be able to go to New York.   Because of all the crazy weather up north,  we convinced our NY doctors to allow us to do Kaylynn's 6 months follow up 2.5 hour MRI/MRA for Kaylynn here in Austin.    The MRI/MRA is scheduled for Jan 2nd.    We need to make sure that nothing is changing with her brain or arteries.    My motherly gut tells me we are good.   Although Larry and I are a little nervous about the one that sits inside her back neck.    I'll keep you all updated.  Prayers for all positive news are appreciated.  She looks incredible.   Oh,  and she is really getting her personality,  crawling all over the house, and taking brothers toys.  hee hee   She is ALL Girl, both good and bad. 

 

I've gotten stronger everyday since my tubes came out Dec 7th.   Our good friend Jill McClellan was here for the whole week of Dec 10th.  As usually we didn't let her sit down much.   She kept the house going with all her incredible cooking,   getting the clothes washed,  and kitchen cleaned.   Poor Jill had to put up with my frustration of losing my independence.   All I wanted to do was drive myself to all my doctors appts, and when I got the clearance Dec 14th,  Jill happily handed over the keys.   

 

My recovery has been great.   I can lift both arms completely above my head. No rehab for me.   I'm holding Kaylynn in both arms.  I have always favored my left arm carrying Kaylynn, this where they took out my lymph nodes,  and can hold her on my left side now.   I'm still sore and get tired.   But I can't complain.   I can do an activity of the day out shopping with the kids or something.    It is nice to feel better for Christmas.    It was a Merry Christmas for us.   We stayed all home all day in our PJ's.  Oh,  I had hair for pictures.     And even though I face chemo this week,  because of all my friends and family I could sit back and enjoy the holidays.

 

On Dec 13th,   Larry and I went to Dr. Fain, oncologist, to reconfirm my pathology report and treatment plan.  On the drive there at a red light there was a car with a sticker that said F**K CANCER.  I know it's not the best language but seriously it makes sense.    Sometimes you can feel this way. 

 

Walking into the Southwest Regional Cancer Center hits you hard.    I definitely see it in Larry's eyes.    I think we both just think,  why are we here?      

 

My path was really good.   Only 2 of 26 lymph nodes positive in the left.   I will not have radiation.   YES!   I was smiling ear to ear over this news.    The tumor in left breast was 8mm and full of  cancer calcification's.   But they retested for inflammatory like my mom's breast cancer and it was negative.   The right breast had only a cyst.